Wow. Life has just been throwing the drama-snowballs lately.....and I keep failing my dodge checks. (Yes, I am a D&D nerd, for those who might have been wondering.) Just stuff with my ex-boyfriend, and it's getting ridiculous. I can't make this shit up. Hypothetically, if you say you love someone, logic dictates that they make you happy, and you do not break up with them. By the same logic, if you say you love someone, you also do not suddenly stop talking to that person.
BUT...
If you say you love someone, and you break up with them, but you tell them that you still want them in your life...do you stop talking to them? Is that a good way to tell them you still want to have that person in your life AT ALL?
....because I don't think so. I mean, I could be mistaken. No one is right all the time, just logic goes against this by its very nature.
I am going to take a break from this, to expound on something else. I generally really don't like making people feel bad. Tonight was particularly bad, and I really needed a decent rant. So, I was on Facebook, and posted a rather angry rant on my friend's wall. (This particular friend had blocked my ex-boyfriend.) Then, not five minutes later, I had a new message. I opened it, to discover a note from my ex, saying that he had stalked through my wall to find the link to the post I had made, followed that link (to the blocked page) and seen everything I had written, which I clearly hadn't wanted him to see.
Now, I realize that if I REALLY hadn't wanted him to see it, I should not have posted such a thing on a social networking site such as Facebook, of all places. However, in my defense it is late, and I am simply fed-up.
He sent me a private message saying that he isn't angry about my rant, and that I should say things to his face. I understand that it's kind of immature to say things behind someone's back, but if they just broke up with you out of nowhere, I think that it's somewhat acceptable to be a little upset, and not really want to talk to them about it. Personally, I give no fucks about whether or not he is upset at me for letting out steam on a page he wasn't supposed to be able to see, in order to preserve my own quickly-dwindling sanity and peace of mind, and as such, any reassurances he was trying to make were lost on me. More than anything else, I am upset that he felt that my rant was his business, and that he thought he had every right to read it, to the point of being a creeper, for lack of a better term, and stalking my Facebook page to find a link to something he knew no one wanted him to see.
I wonder how much daytime TV would pay me to let them turn this into a soap opera?
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